A healthy mind is more important than a healthy body. Take care of your mind first.

Every gifts received and every lunch treated is a reminder to kindness

独自夜游台大- 想到有幸住过这里的宿舍, 站过脚车, 在校钟下喝台啤,旁听...很感谢
二十岁 拥有的不多 可以分享的却不少
没钱旅行, 去一趟超市买半价的橙汁也可以很高兴
那个学生的时代 好怀念
平静的椰林大道

最重要的是那个沸点前不放弃的信心。 纯的念头

今天 读着新生命的分享心得 想起今天在法光上的课 。
在想 我对佛学的兴趣 到底是哪一类型的? 可以听到有趣 是因为 老师够好吗?
这种兴趣 会不会超过我对那种瑜伽etc 的有feel? 那种超澄静的笃定?
那个到底是属于佛教的吗? 还是如捷立说的, 每一个宗教都有静坐啊,什么都有用啊,只是不要讲是佛教。(因为佛教最重要是智慧)
我会不会把那种笃定自己联想成跟佛教,甚至跟宗教,甚至跟瑜伽有关系,可是他可能 not arise from them at all.
For example,  zhangjie's 笃定is from feldenkrais,  no matter how similar it sounds, it is from different thing. But it could be same thing from body level. Not from ultimate enlightenment point of view.

可能真的没有。

我的志愿里, 只是要恍然的感觉。

到底你说的timing 到了 是什么timing?  对的老师?
Say marriage timing,  is wait till settle mood or wait till right person?

Wat Po General Thai Massage (30 hours) training

After thinking about it for almost a year, I decide to go to Bangkok to learn Thai Massage from the renowned Wat Po massage school, teaching traditional thai massage since 1962. I have considered going to Chiang Mai to learn because there are many good schools and teachers (including the one who started the massage program in Wat Po) but the timing is not good for me. I would love to learn the Northern style if I have a chance in the future. 

So here I am! In an alley opposite the west side of Wat Po. If you need to look for this place, turn in and walk till the end of the alley when you see 'Coconut Palm Restaurant' at the corner. 

The entrance of the Wat Po massage school 

The reception area

Second floor with a water cooler and shoe racks. 

The practice hall, where everyone takes turn to massage their partner under the teacher's supervision. I practice here for 5 days!

So it's hard work... but it's not difficult to pass. We have to memorize the whole set of sequences within 5 days, but because we repeated it so many times, and have been corrected on the weak spots many times, we sort of get the flow at the end of the training. Have a good rest every night because you will be kneeling down, massaging people and being massaged by amateurs most of the time. Surprisingly it doesn't feel that laborious, because we learn how to use our body weight, certain postures and angles to massage. What we learn is mainly for general relaxation, and this is a very practical oriented course, which means there isn't much theory besides a quick introduction of the 10 energy lines. For anyone who is interested to learn more about the theories and for therapy purposes, they have a 10-day advanced course that started every 2nd and 4th saturday, if I am not wrong. 

But as an advice he said: “if you want to be a seeker, if you want to follow, then bear in mind never to satisfy or do with relative truth, strive for the ultimate truth, never to rely and do with a person, a teacher. Try to strive for the teaching. Never to trust what your mind concludes. Strive for the conclusion coming from the wisdom, the wisdomwisdom mind”. 

I have been quite depressed with my spiritual progress recently.
(Not having material gain definitely doesn't equate to better spiritual gain)
But what is spiritual progress actually?  That's the question I have to define.

What is the most important progress I wish to have? Or what parameter would u use to evaluate my progress? 
I have gone on pilgrimage, taken a one-month course, went to teachings when I can, practice yoga,  learn meditation from a few places, place a statue in my study room...
Which one counts?
Why do I feel like I haven't move at all after so many 'hardcore' looking activities?
I think ultimately... intuitive healer is what I aspire to become. And I am accumulating the qualities... like a lost kid trying to piece the puzzles together.

I remembered instances when I feel that  the meditation is like self hypnosis/brainwash during kopan course.  Or when I ask myself what's next/what for when I do my silence? 

When I talked to ngla about meditation, I told her I didn't do vipassana but I was just doing mantra meditation and analytical meditation.. then she said these things are good vibration but you didn't really dig into yourself and face it.
Maybe what Angiela felt during goenka vipassana are something like those difficult emotions I had during feldenkrais workshop (feel like crying just doing body scan on the mat) and Almora ttc (when I am definitely forced out of my comfort zone and perceived limitation)

So what I think now is that.. I probably don't need a code of conduct (like what ivy said ultimately you decide what you want in life)

I want to be able to know myself in a deeper level, and hence know the others at depth too (Like what Lama yeshe said, you know yourself and then you know everyone) And help them from there.

Not for myself, but for others 

And I pray today, may I be the bridge and the hand.. to bring people to a better side... to help and heal people with whatever I know... 

A long way to go... 

by Anita Moorjani, the author of the book "Dying to be Me".. about her near death experience

Don't be afraid to be who you are and find your joy.
One of the problems we have is that we have lost our joy and we have forgotten who we are.
We have no passion for our lives anymore. We are afraid to express ourselves.
Get in touch with your heart and express who you are. Live life with joy.

We live our life out of fear. Every choice I made is made out of fear. I take this job because I am afraid of losing the social status. Every food we eat is we fear the consequences... Everything we do comes from a place of fear. And people don't love themselves. And then we become drained and depleted.

When you love yourself, you love life. When you don't love yourself, life is miserable. And when life is miserable, that's what you spread around.
"Life is a gift, don't be afraid to be yourself, find your joy and live life with passion everyday."

Revisiting fpmt abc

Very happy to be back in abc.. just attending a class.  :)
Last year I joined the meditation beginner course here and decided to go to Kopan for one-month course.
It reminds me of my pre kopan time. When I feel that there's nothing to fail and nothing to fear.  Quitting my job and relearning and rechoosing career is not a big deal.
Regarding my discussion with Amy about learning expensive healing method like delta healing,  feldenkrais method etc. Why I never consider learning them just because they are expensive? Why I am willing to spend 4k to go australia but I reject a certification of feldenkrais where I might earn back by practicing it?
If it's is not widely practice, why don't I see it as a privilege- less competition, rather than a shortcomings -small market? 
I do believe that we can earn back what we spend / invest on knowledge.
If I think that being a physiotherapist is more secured... which part of it is the secured part? Since nothing is inherently existing?  Do I make up the story and forever refuse to learn what I could? 
Can I find out which part of it is secured so that I can better allocate and invest my time and money on learning now?
Why not learning yoga when I already know that my ttc is not enough..according to my own standard? 
Have I forgotten what wishes I made upon my stone?

First night of Cameron Highland retreat. During the meditation session, kenny say the most important foundation is to put your mind at the three points: Sahasrara, tip of the nose and 丹田.. according to your condition at the moment. 
And remember to take refuge before everything you do. Then you will be protected. 
Someone ask about knowing your mind/old habits and changing your old habits are different. Kenny ask if we have experienced losing ourselves and don't know what happened earlier. He say if we really have the meditation foundation we will slowly close the gap between awareness and the forget about what happen state,  and then we will change ourselves.
Meditation doesn't mean emptying your mind,  it means knowing your mind. 

We are all an unique piece of snowflake inside the same snow globe

About the 5 khandhas from Samyuttanikaya

Form is like a lump of foam,
Feeling like a water bubble;
Perception is like a mirage,
Volitions like a plantain tree,
And conciousness like an illusion.

Read news about a fire in Thamel, Kathmandu last night. Pilgrims book house, one of the largest that has amazing collection of books is burnt down.
Feel a bit sad about it...
I decide to start reading Dhammapada that has been on my bookshelf for a year.
Life is impermanent, books too.

全息经络指压法

Went to a interesting talk about acupressure called "全息经络指压法" today at RPA Holistic Wellness Academy.
Important points: 
经络乃布满人体的气血通路系统
腧穴乃脏腑经络气血输注出入的特殊部位
气为血帅，气到血到，意到气到
气行血行， 气滞血滞
气血 - 不通则痛
气血可以弥漫散发， 所以刮痧有帮助
修练法要简易的才好。薛雪曾道“因知不根于虚静者，即是邪术；不归于易简者，即是旁门” 
3个重要的穴位：
合谷穴 - 于大肠经，用于晕车头晕，感冒， 中暑
内关穴 - 于心包经，用于急救
足三里- 于胃经，“肚腹三里求”，又称强壮穴。

Personal Philosophy

"I have seen something amazing. When I go to see many swamis, they always ask me, "Do you go into the world and see people, how are they?" They think about you, and you people think about them. So remain wherever you are, enlightenment has nothing to do with renunciation or action. You should learn to build your concept of life and it's not very difficult, it is your birthright. no matter what cultural background you have, which religion you belong to, if you have not built your personal philosophy, it's not going to help you. Every now and then, great men come and give a push to humanity as a whole, to help them attain the next step of civilization. What do they do? Can you create a flower, a leaf, a blade of grass? No. The flower are the same, but these great men change the basket, according to their time."

-Conscious living, Swami Rama