I like myself when I first arrived in Glasgow. I like the posts that I wrote, I can't believe I wrote it even.
Now... now I am just missing the feeling of a home. I am missing Fabio.
And I don't see a clear picture in front of me. What's after graduation?
I am suspended in a constant rush for datelines and constant judgement to do better, being afraid that no one will ever hire me after I graduate...
It always feel so stress to get through placements now.
I have been through a lot, definitely. I embrace the unfamiliarity. I traveled. I pissed people off. I got pissed off. I freaked out during assessments. I failed a paper. What's the matter?
I spent my weekends with someone. I swam in bikinis. I made pizza.
Just no one to give the affirmation and praise.
And I forgot how much we have done, we have learnt.
And it all feels like I am still stuck at ground zero, that my life have to start from scratch.
And I deny myself of all the life I had before and all the experience I have
And I forgot the conviction I have... about changing my life.
The feeling of home in Lugo, just by the warmth and abundance...make me missing the feeling of home.
And I... now I wish to have someone, someone that stands by me, that knows my goodness, that looks forward to spend his life with me, that can just lie down and watch a movie with me.
And I would like to have a job that I enjoy. And to settle down, at the same time has access to the diversity.. and nature.
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