1.5 years in

I like myself when I first arrived in Glasgow. I like the posts that I wrote, I can't believe I wrote it even.

Now... now I am just missing the feeling of a home. I am missing Fabio.
And I don't see a clear picture in front of me. What's after graduation?
I am suspended in a constant rush for datelines and constant judgement to do better, being afraid that no one will ever hire me after I graduate...
It always feel so stress to get through placements now.
I have been through a lot, definitely. I embrace the unfamiliarity. I traveled. I pissed people off. I got pissed off. I freaked out during assessments. I failed a paper. What's the matter?
I spent my weekends with someone. I swam in bikinis. I made pizza.
Just no one to give the affirmation and praise.
And I forgot how much we have done, we have learnt.
And it all feels like I am still stuck at ground zero, that my life have to start from scratch.
And I deny myself of all the life I had before and all the experience I have
And I forgot the conviction I have... about changing my life.
The feeling of home in Lugo, just by the warmth and abundance...make me missing the feeling of home.

And I... now I wish to have someone, someone that stands by me, that knows my goodness, that looks forward to spend his life with me, that can just lie down and watch a movie with me.

And I would like to have a job that I enjoy. And to settle down, at the same time has access to the diversity.. and nature.

Croatia Trip

Day 1: Split (Stay with Elena's airbnb)

Go to Cathedral of St. Domnius, Bell tower, Jupiter Temple, Diocletian's palace, green market, had dinner in Tinel (Had langoustine). Bought some lavender oil and bag.

Day 2: Join Greyline tour to Plitvice Lake National Park. Had lunch in Bistro Vila Velebita (Had suckling pig). Had dinner in Konoba Matejuska (Had cuttlefish black risotto and grilled shark with super good white wine)

Day 3: Took Krilo Catamaran to Hvar Town. Arrived around 8.45pm. Stay in Casablanca airbnb with Zorica. Went to Konica pastry shop for coffee and tiramisu. Walk up to the fortress for superb view. Lunch at a restaurant at St.stephen's square (Had Prawn Gnocchi) Walk to the beach on the west side. Had dinner at Konoba Menego. Went home. Head out for Kiva Bar.

Day 4: Join blue cave tour with a tour company next to Hvar Adventure. Went to blue cave, then Komiza for lunch break, Green cave, Stiniva, an unnamed island with turkey, chicken and donkey! Palmizana for sandy beach break

Day 5: Ferry to Dubrovnik. Check in Airbnb. Walk around the walled city. Had pizza at Pizzeria Oliva. Walked the whole round of the old wall. Had dinner at Nishta.

Day 6: Join Adriatic explore tour to Mostar. Come back had dinner at Nishta again.