Revisiting fpmt abc

Very happy to be back in abc.. just attending a class.  :)
Last year I joined the meditation beginner course here and decided to go to Kopan for one-month course.
It reminds me of my pre kopan time. When I feel that there's nothing to fail and nothing to fear.  Quitting my job and relearning and rechoosing career is not a big deal.
Regarding my discussion with Amy about learning expensive healing method like delta healing,  feldenkrais method etc. Why I never consider learning them just because they are expensive? Why I am willing to spend 4k to go australia but I reject a certification of feldenkrais where I might earn back by practicing it?
If it's is not widely practice, why don't I see it as a privilege- less competition, rather than a shortcomings -small market? 
I do believe that we can earn back what we spend / invest on knowledge.
If I think that being a physiotherapist is more secured... which part of it is the secured part? Since nothing is inherently existing?  Do I make up the story and forever refuse to learn what I could? 
Can I find out which part of it is secured so that I can better allocate and invest my time and money on learning now?
Why not learning yoga when I already know that my ttc is not enough..according to my own standard? 
Have I forgotten what wishes I made upon my stone?