Croatia Trip

Day 1: Split (Stay with Elena's airbnb)

Go to Cathedral of St. Domnius, Bell tower, Jupiter Temple, Diocletian's palace, green market, had dinner in Tinel (Had langoustine). Bought some lavender oil and bag.

Day 2: Join Greyline tour to Plitvice Lake National Park. Had lunch in Bistro Vila Velebita (Had suckling pig). Had dinner in Konoba Matejuska (Had cuttlefish black risotto and grilled shark with super good white wine)

Day 3: Took Krilo Catamaran to Hvar Town. Arrived around 8.45pm. Stay in Casablanca airbnb with Zorica. Went to Konica pastry shop for coffee and tiramisu. Walk up to the fortress for superb view. Lunch at a restaurant at St.stephen's square (Had Prawn Gnocchi) Walk to the beach on the west side. Had dinner at Konoba Menego. Went home. Head out for Kiva Bar.

Day 4: Join blue cave tour with a tour company next to Hvar Adventure. Went to blue cave, then Komiza for lunch break, Green cave, Stiniva, an unnamed island with turkey, chicken and donkey! Palmizana for sandy beach break

Day 5: Ferry to Dubrovnik. Check in Airbnb. Walk around the walled city. Had pizza at Pizzeria Oliva. Walked the whole round of the old wall. Had dinner at Nishta.

Day 6: Join Adriatic explore tour to Mostar. Come back had dinner at Nishta again.

American Wilds - Deep Woods

This sound calms me down so much. And it reminds me of Canadian forest especially. Those with big tall ancient trees. Crystal clear spring water.
Whitehorse....
Or New Zealand...
That's where I want to be, where I want to settle down...

3 months passed and here I am in an English country house reflecting on my new life in Glasgow. 

With all the deliberately or unintentionally alienation from familiarity... which pretty much means Asian, and with a secret hope to turn back time to enjoy my student life in an ang moh country. I see myself trying to blend in at the same time carelessly "fallen".
No more spiritual me I thought.
But what is it that I really want and lack in life? Why can't I be spiritual anymore, if spiritual is how you face your world? If meditation is having awareness when you clean your toilet?
It is at most the pressure to drink alcohol.  Other than that there's nothing immoral here.
Don't blame a busy student life as non-spiritual.... right?
Maybe the screw up sleeping time....
Shouldn't stop you from meditating either. 
When swami nitya ask us to share why we are here, I said that I need to reconnect to the spiritual side. To make sure it is not just external but internal expecially when I am in an environment like Glasgow and academic. 
In a way I enjoy being pushed out of the comfort zone to critically write my paper, to finally make up before a night out, to have the first free beer from stranger (maybe free lemonade next time) I do dream about wanton mee..I am yet to figure out how to feel nourished.
I do freak out during meditation as if I am not living my life. What i am doing here instead of studying TCM... But swami nitya reassure me that it's necessary because she don't encourage people teach yoga as a living and she can see me combining physio and yoga. (Don't know what she would say of I mentioned that I consider TCM or shiatsu?...)
I feel that she might be too gentle with me but it's a good mental booster.  :)
Very nice of her to invite me to her place too.
Anyway I see that there can be no conflict between my life in Glasgow and continuing to meditate, to progress spiritually. I probably still need to find a supportive community of some sort- buddhism or yoga but I should at least keep on doing my own practice for now.
With my new age and being surrounded by great women one day after my birthday I am also inspired to become a stronger and more impactful woman. Sabina is my new idol!
I don't have to wear a mala around me to be spiritual and I hope that I can still be me... With nothing to hide. Hope people will understand. If a spiritual image of me is something for ego, it should't hurt me for now.
I just need to find someone or some place inspiring, and find a good cause to work for.
When I mentioned that physiotherapy we just learn about muscle and bones itself she say that "it has no soul" she also feels that my anger comes from frustration with the new environment... so if it resolved and I can see why I am here it will be better.

My dream is to be retired in the himalayas. Or earlier than that. :)

What if we can live everyday like we have come back to revisit the past. And we can take away the worries for future and make our day sweeter. 

I sorta of suspect... that's what people with clairvoyance do?...

It freaks me out when I feel that I might get bored of physio very soon.
Is boredom my biggest problem?
Is it a referred pain?
I am constantly avoiding boredom..
That's why I am here. Yet I am so uninterested.

My piriformis

I think I understand more about my butt pain more today.
I come to read  about a muscle that I have never heard of before this week called piriformis that stretch across from the tailbone to thigh bone.
And it causes sciatica, because the sciatic nerve is just right underneath it so if it is overly tensed or overworked it will certainly pinch on the nerve.
And the cause of it is a weak gluteal muscle, pronation of the foot, and tight adductor.

No wonder I feel pain to keep my legs together (lateral rotation) when I am doing cobra pose (which is a bit of hip extension i supposed)
And when I worked on my very weak locust pose (which is gluteal muscles strengthening to get hip extension), my butt pain gets better!
Because now that my gluteal muscles are stronger, the piriform doesn't have to compensate so much for them?
And all the exercise that relieve piriformis syndrome seems to be the yoga poses that work for me!
What~
It's just a bit of eureka moment but I am not 100% sure.
But it's definitely cool~ like I don't even know what is the name of my problem before this.
Now what I am reading in class finally has a very close relevance to my own pains and concerns.